"WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK"

photo by Jenn

Maybe this post should have been titled, "Oops, I Did It Again.."?  Y'all, I left my "new" job.

Although, this time around was way more difficult than the first job I left in D.C., it had to be done.  My schedule has been nothing short of insane and it has been really tough balancing everything.  I do feel super grateful that I have a busy and (sometimes) exciting life, but I started realizing that I wasn't focusing on anything enough to feel like I was doing a good job.  Work, school, blog, friends, family (including Mollie), etc.  Everything was going fine..but fine is not okay with me.  I want to do a good job in everything I do.  That wasn't happening.  Seven months into my last job, I still had no clue what I was doing.  There were a lot of factors that went into that, but it was tough on the ego.  I literally never heard "good job" or "that's right" from my boss.  Nicest man ever, but you know you're doing something wrong when you never hear any reassurance..it definitely made me seriously reconsider my abilities.  School was suffering, too.  Sure, I was making good grades, but I wasn't focused and wasn't really investing my time into class..and isn't that why I made the move to D.C. in the first place?  The answer is "yes".  Also, this blog..my outlet..hobby..fun-thing in my life..well, as y'all know, it's been on the back-burner for sure.  One time I went two weeks without posting a picture on Instagram.  That's like blogger suicide..kidding..kind of.    I know the blogging thing seems trivial, but it has become a very important thing in my life and I was literally ignoring it.  Oh and let's not even discuss the last time I worked out..actually we can't discuss it because I can't remember it.

So yep, I quit.  I left.  I hate the word quit.  What's my plan?  What do I want to do when school is over?  I do not know.  I'm keeping an open mind, going to apply to every semi-interesting job that will pay the bills and take it from there.

For real, though.  Thanks to y'all for being such troopers as I try and figure out the rest of my life.  The blog will hopefully be running like normal and I promise to write more and keep everyone updated on what's going on.  Isn't that why I started a blog in the first place?  I think you know the answer.